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My laundry machines are dying. Again. Laundry at the Bowman house has always been an adventure. We started with a washer but no dryer, I used a clothesline. Then I inheirited a used, barely alive, washer from a friend. At some point I remember making trips to the laundry mat frequently, you know with two babies in tow. Then we moved and were blessed with appliances that came with the house, nice! We moved again and inheirited my parents old washer and dryer that we used when I was in Jr. and Sr. High school. These held on for a while, but now the washer jumps and bumps around almost in a complete circle, pulling its cord and hose away from the wall. It rattles the floors and sounds like something is about to explode! I like adventures but a little more stability in my life right now would not hurt a thing. So… we are buying brand new appliances!

O my gosh, I can’t believe it! I am so excited! A front loading washer and a stackable dryer (heavy duty, large capacity of course) that eventually will be moved from my basement, which you have to access through a very narrow trapdoor like stairway in our bedroom (it’s a miracle I survived through three pregnancies without falling down or getting stuck 🙂 ) into an aclove off of our kitchen on the main floor. I will be able to do laundry without having to wonder where or what the kids are doing. I won’t have to wash loads more than one time because of forgetting to put the wet clothes into the dryer soon enough before they sour and stink! (This was especially a problem since my machines were in a wet moldy basement to begin with.) I will be motivated to keep up with the laundry since I won’t be able to hide the mountains in the basement any more. I will not have mountains in my kitchen! (Of course there is still my bedroom that has a door I can shut, but no, I must conquer the Beast!

Check. One more Bowman household project underway. Stay tuned till next time to hear another silly post with Larry, oh, I mean Amy… Ode to a back yard fence.


Yeah! We got rid of junk! Two small truck loads! Now if we can go through the cardboard boxes full of old school papers and stuff, and get the rest of our stuff ready for a yard sale. It is absolutely amazing to me how much junk accumulates and so quickly! Matt has definitely rubbed off on me, I can not stand all the useless mess that gathers around us!

I like making things look nice, I like things to be neat. I am not always very good at it though. I have to make a conscience decision to practice “less is better”. I come from a long line of knick nack collectors, who when they see something pretty they just have to have it and squeeze it in somewhere. Some “generational curses” are hard to break. 🙂

Someone shared with me recently that they told someone that they should forgive or God would not forgive them. I knew this was something that Jesus said and so I looked up the scripture. Matthew 6:14. As I read this I began to think about the idea of “unconditional love”. I began to do some research and you know what, I am not sure that this is a biblical idea. As I looked at scriptures there seem to be “conditions”. Here is an article I ran into. How about some dialog! 🙂

This is for my friend Dennis. Love ya, bro.

I wrote this as a private rant a few days ago, before I emotionally spewed on my wonderfully understanding sister and my awesomely encouraging husband, who put up with a 45 minute crying session in the car on the way to our dinner date Saturday. My previous post full of Good News was preceded by several months of very emotional agony within (well, it oozed out a few times I guess. Sorry, Matt). When I wrote this I felt absolutely awful. Looking at it now it seems kind of weak comparatively. This is unedited. Please don’t take anything personal or too serious, it’s mainly hot air. 🙂
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I was listening to Wayne Jacobsen’s web radio show, The God Journey, this morning. It was very good. For anyone who wonders what on earth Matt and I are “doing” these days (along with several of our friends) just take a listen to Wayne’s show. They are just getting started with this radio thing and as for me, I am really looking forward to more of it. It is much easier to listen to a radio program while cooking dinner or doing laundry than trying to read stuff on the computer.

Well, enough of the plug for Wayne’s stuff. My title is what I was actually posting about. On the show at one point they got to talking about trusting God and how people will do everything they can think of and then when all else fails they will decide to trust God. I don’t know about you, but this is where I live. How come we “do” all this stuff first and then trust God? What would it look like if we came to Him first, if we believed Him first, if we looked to Him first? Wow, what a concept! I think, if only in a very small way, I am learning to do this. It is absolutely incredible, He really can be trusted, He really wants us to come to Him, to abide in Him.

The passages in Hebrews that talk ab0ut entering God’s rest come to mind here.

Take care, brethren, that there not be in any one of you an evil, unbelieving heart that falls away from the living God. But encourage one another day after day, as long as it is still called “Today,” so that none of you will be hardened by the decietfulness of sin. For we have become partakers of Christ, if we hold fast the beginning of our assurance firm until the end, while it is said, TODAY IF YOU HEAR HIS VOICE, DO NOT HARDEN YOUR HEARTS, AS WHEN THEY PROVOKED ME.” ….So we see that they were not able to enter because of unbelief.

Therefore, let us fear if, while a promise remains of entering His rest, any one of you may seem to have come short of it. For indeed we have had good news preached to us, just as they also; but the word they heard did not profit them, because it was not united by faith in those who heard. For we who have believed enter that rest…. Hebrews 3:12-4:3 NAS

I bet all my “problems” can be summed up in one sin, that of unbelief. Oh, Lord help my unbelief! Let me rest in You and Your unchanging love for me. And let me not keep “doing” everything I know to do, but trust that You, in Your infinite wisdom, have everything in control and that Your plans are always the best for me. Amen