I am now officially a Knox County Elementary Special Education para professional. 
I am very excited but also trying not to be nervous, which for me is hard. So far I’ve had two panicky episodes, close to but not quite full blown panic attacks. Crazy, I know. My counselor is working with me to help me with organization and stress management. I have such a hard time with breaking things down into manageable bites. I keep trying to eat the whole elephant. Hee, hee!
I know it will be fine once I get started, but I tend to be very nervous in anticipation. It’s mental, I know, just like how freaked out I used to get about shots. I am much better about shots and needles than I used to be. It just took practice. (Got lots of that when I had three babies!)
We will be taking it one day at a time, one bite at a time.
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July 25, 2008 at 10:21 pm
Serenity
Well, congratulations on the job! I know you can do it. Just do the next thing, that’s what Elizabeth Eliot used to say. Just the next thing. And trust your husband and kiddos to help you find a groove. I’ll be anxious to hear how it goes, and I’ll be thinking of you.
July 26, 2008 at 4:25 am
amoseli
Thanks, Serenity!!
July 26, 2008 at 8:41 pm
Felicity
Congrats! Special Education is close to my heart and I think you have just the kind touch to do it well.
July 27, 2008 at 2:41 pm
amoseli
Thank you, Felicity! I’m looking forward to working with these special children and learning lots along the way.
July 28, 2008 at 11:55 pm
Cindy
Good for you for recognizing panic ‘episodes’ and definitely good for you for seeing a counselor. I’m so excited with the steps you are taking to help care for your family – not to mention bettering yourself. I have some empathy for you in that change makes me nervous just not quite panicky (that would be heights). By the way – though these things are ‘mental’, they are hard wired ‘mental’ which means you’ve been conditioned to be this way all your life. These seemingly small steps you are taking can quickly amount to huge leaps so hang in there and reject anything that makes you feel guilty for being in this process.
There’s no question how well you will do in this new adventure, you have a tender heart and a fair amount of patience. You’re a good mom and there’s no reason that won’t carry over into caring for other peoples children.
Don’t be afraid to have some pride over your accomplishments – these are admirable things you are doing and you should feel very good about them.
I’ve probably preached enough for one post. Congrats Amy!
July 30, 2008 at 4:08 am
amoseli
Cindy!! I sure miss you!!! Thanks for the encouragement.
Yep, we are making huge leaps in understanding and changes in our lives. All of us. This school year will be a big adjustment for each of us, I believe. I’m working on getting to bed at a decent hour every night, so I will post later. (working, I said
Tonight was a movie night.)
When are you going to do a blog???? At least some pictures once in a while???? Pleeeeeaaase?????
July 30, 2008 at 11:35 pm
Cindy
Not going to do a blog. I’m past the point of thinking I’ve got anything amazing to contribute to the world so I just use other people’s blogs as my outlet HA! Try this link
http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1152589440
I don’t know if it will work so my facebook is posted under Cindy Rider-Brennecke you might have to get a facebook page to access my page – it’s kinda fun but I don’t really understand it. I just use it to post pics of Lizzy for her grandparents and to waist time in the evening after work.